I keep falling back into the habits that I hate Every time I feel okay, I drift back into

The gray I keep telling myself, this time is different

But then I relapse, then I relapse, then I relapse Back at it again, same pain in my chest

Don't know where to run, running from my past, yeah

One more night, one more mistake, here we go again

I can feel the weight returning every time I breathe, yeah

Tell me why the hardest battles always happen in my head

I'm at a war with who I was and who I'm tryna be next

I've been searching for some peace but all I find is regret, regret, yeah

I don't know what I'm even here for I don't know, tryna find a reason

Can somebody tell me what I'm here fighting for

Searching for some more, trying not to lose the little that's still left in me

I'm exhausted from this battle that nobody else can see

Every time I stand back up, I hit the floor once more

How much more can I take before my whole spirit's worn out

Worn out, worn out

Reminiscing I'm defending, memories never ending

Shadows walking, demons knocking, voices calling was our father

Heaven or earth, I'm at the altar

My sins, I confess, I still regret it

Try to let it but I can't forget it

Toss it all, I was at my limit

I keep falling back into the habits that I hate

Every time I feel okay, I drift back into the gray

I keep telling myself this time is different

But then I relapse, then I relapse, then I relapse

Back at it again, same pain in my chest

Don't know where to run, running from my past, yeah

One more night, one more mistake, here we go again

I can feel the weight returning every time I breathe, yeah

Tell me why the hardest battles always happen in my head

I'm at a war with who I was and who I'm trying to be next

I've been searching for some peace but all I find is regret

Regret, yeah

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