I had a smile on my face so you could never tell Girl I’ve been going through this pain and spending money helps. I hate that we don’t feel the same. I had to wish you well I had nobody. I could grab whenever **** fell, I done seen the closest **** change that’s why I trust myself. You said forever than you left that shit done fucking help. I keep praying to God for all the nights that I was stuck in Hell she know what I’m on. She trying to fuck she grabbing on my belt and nowadays I barely recognize myself. I’m looking in the mirror it keep looking back for help. She told me that I’m acting kind of different girl I felt that I’m trying to change for you. Don’t see myself with no one else. Why the fuck I switch this lane say I won’t just crash this Porsche and put a bullet in my brain. I keep trying to learn about patience, but that shit take time to train. I know one day I’m gonna ghost and prolly change my fucking name.

I had a smile on my face so you could never tell Girl I’ve been going through this pain and spending money helps. I hate that we don’t feel the same. I had to wish you well I had nobody. I could grab whenever **** fell

A shit here we go again. I keep spending time on all these hoes that I’ve regret. They asked me how I’m doing I just told him it depends. Cause I keep looking back at all the time that I done spent i’m pouring up this cup I hope this shit drown out the pain. Every time Im moving forward, something pulls me back again.

I’ve been stuck inside the cycle. Every days the fucking same. All this fucked up shit inside my head The reason that I pray. And Girl, I’m still trying to sober up. I get so high I swear to God I don’t remember yesterday. And you know my heart still cold as fuck said when I die, just bury me with all my ice up in the grave.

I had a smile on my face so you could never tell Girl I’ve been going through this pain and spending money helps. I hate that we don’t feel the same. I had to wish you well I had nobody. I could grab whenever **** fell