I always wanted to start off like this

Yeah

I'm just

Still in progress

Look

Been thinking that maybe I’m tryna be someone I’m not

Spent all them years tryna think out the box

I told myself I’m done with labels cause if they label me it’ll be someone I’m not

Found myself in a relationship where I realized that I don’t give it all to God

And no it’s much more than my insecurities I’m tryna give it all I got

Feel like I’m running behind so I’m taking it all in my hands

Feeling like I’ve been a failing son to God I should but I don’t always trust in his plans

Lately some Christians that’s up on the internet talking too reckless I wanna throw hands

My stance is complex

And I’ve been tryna keep my anger in check

Cause I’ve been fighting some thoughts that been having my heart feeling vexed

You say you a Christian but every time you speak you leaving someone in a mess

Like how you expect to be light in the dark when there’s darkness so deep in your chest

And then wonder why they ain’t coming to Christ

You say that you Christian but don’t change your life

But say what you want if it turns into likes…

Man

I ain’t perfect I’ve been strugglin with

Copin with the fact that I got a gift

That feels like it’s on a timer because I’m 30 and I ain’t expect none of this

I leave it to God but tell him to wait

How backwards is that to the one who is great?

It’s mad disrespectful to leave it to fate

I’m done with the fakes

I’m up in the word I’ve been studying James

And I got some questions like am I even living up to my name

And no I ain’t talking what my parents gave me

Talking bout the one who hung bled and saved me

Lord forgive me I’ve been living too crazy

I know that’s not how you made me

Look

I told my fiancée I’m back to my ways, checked myself and then I asked God for grace

Hol up wait up lemme bring it back I’m going back to his ways and I cannot go back to the days that I thought I could do it alone

Really I thought I was up in my zone

Depression was creeping me I was sleeping in thought I could never get out but that’s when I

That’s when I felt your presence taking over me

You said come and talk to me like Jodeci

Though I’m needing therapy talking with Jesus gon give me some answers that breathe into me

And give me relief

See I can’t be living in my truth

That ain’t the way to live this life eternally I’m seeking you

Yeah, huh, like okay

Got me like woah woah woah

Like woah woah woah

Woah woah woah

Tae