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Asphyxiate

Hip-Hop/Rap2026

Song Details

Asphyxiate was released on September 5, 2026 by LXCHY as a part of the album #MORELACHY

Album#MORELACHY

September 5, 2026

LabelLXCHY

LanguageEnglish

BPM93

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Valence

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LYRICS

Lyrics

I kept a better version of me

Upstairs behind a locked door

Was learning how to live

While I was pacing the same floor

I heard he was moving after midnight

Dragging chairs across my sleep aight

He wore my face without the damage

Spoke without rehearsing first

Never mistook being wanted

For a temporary cure for thirst

I said, "One day he'll come and save me

Once I've suffered long enough,"

So I fed the lock another year

And called the waiting love

I let tomorrow dress like mercy

Let it promise me a name

While today stood in the doorway

Holding out like a little flame

I told it, "Not yet, I'm not ready

I've still got defects to move,"

Then closed my fist around my windpipe

Just to prove I couldn't move

I thought the world had formed a jury

From the strangers in the street

Someone coughing at the crossing

Meant they'd heard what I became

Someone laughing through a window

Must have recognised my shame

I turned glances into verdicts

Turned silence into proof bitch

Built a courthouse in the ribcage

And condemned myself to truth aye

Not the truth that I was frightened

Not the truth that fear can pass

But the one where I was rotten

And the whole world smelled the gas

So I learned to walk unnoticed

Shoulders folded, footsteps small bitch

Made a talent out of leaving

Before anybody called

I mistook my disappearance

For a clever kind of peace

Kept my fingers at my collar

And complained I couldn't breathe bitch

No one knew the case against me

No one even knew my name

I was prosecutor, witness

Judge and prisoner just the same uh time

The courtroom doors were never bolted

There were exits painted green

Still I sentenced myself nightly

For a crime nobody woulda seen

There are hands around my throat tonight

Ten familiar points of blue

I blamed the room for losing oxygen

But the room was breathing too

I blamed the road, I blamed the rafters

All the years I've stumbled through

Then the mirror raised its fingers

And the fingerprints were mine all through

I thought sorrow made me special

That the wound deserved a throne

That a man becomes important

When he hurts in ways unknown

So I polished all my bruises

Kept them shining for display

Made a museum of the moments

I was begging to decay

I called misery my language

Said contentment couldn't rhyme

That a heart without a funeral

Was a heart that wasted time

I wore grief like formal clothing

Buttoned tightly to the neck

Then resented all the living

For not paying their respect

I thought healing meant betrayal

Like the past would feel ignored

Like the child I used to carry

Would be waiting at the door

Asking why I'd left without him

Why I'd let the daylight in

Why I'd washed away the evidence

Of everything they did

So I kept the old house standing

Though the roof had started falling

I kept the disconnected telephone

In case the hurt came calling though

I let the ivy take the windows

Let the mould possess the beams

Then pressed both thumbs beneath my jaw

To keep from waking from the dream uh

To keep from waking from the dream uh

Maybe pain had been my shelter

Maybe pain had been my proof

But a shelter with no doorway

Is another kind of noose

I had worshipped my confinement

Called the choking something true

As though suffering were sacred

Just because it once was usefu-

Ooh I thought love would come and finish me

Fill the rooms I wouldn't enter

That another person's heartbeat

Could become my missing centre

I thought, if somebody adored me

With a perfect, tireless grace

They could hold my head above me

They could breathe into my place

So I handed out the keys

To doors I'd nailed against myself

Then accused them when they couldn't even help

Find the light upon the shelf

I made rescuers of people

Who were trying just to stay

LXCHY

There are hands around my throat tonight

Ten familiar points of blue

I blamed the room for losing oxygen

But the room was breathing too. (im choking)

I blamed the road, I blamed the rafters

All the years I've stumbled through (Asphyxiation)

Then the mirror raised its fingers

And the fingerprints were mine all through

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Written by: Lachlan Anderson

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