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Shutdown
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Shutdown was released on September 18, 2026 by Kid With The Light as a part of the album Shutdown - Single
September 18, 2026
LabelKid With The Light
LanguageEnglish
BPM61
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Valence
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Mind is folding like a piece of origami
See the warnings every day upon me
Can't change it can't prevent it
Feels strangeyeah I'm spent
When I sayShutdown
Let me explain it
I become a passenger to my own mind
Watching these shutdowns happen in real time
Lights still on but nobody home
Face goes blank then I leave my home
Walking shell just going through motions
System locks out every one of my emotions
Feel nothing for everyone that I love
Against my wishes like the wires got cut
Heart is breaking 'cause it's not what I want
Mind pulls rank and the feelings are gone
Twenty years pushing against these walls
Started with that kid in those school halls
Now it's inside these four walls too
Impacting people I never wanted it to
Nervous system constantly near the edge
Nearly sent me back towards that ledge
But I reached out this time round
Couldn't keep fighting infinite rounds
Figured out everything that I could
Traced every thread underneath the hood
But knowing the system doesn't make it stop
Sometimes understanding still isn't enough
Shut it down shut it down
Nervous system pulls the power before a sound
Doesn't give me a choice this time around
Too much inputshut this shit down
So I hide in my Fortress lock the door
Every small sound feels like one thing more
Tripwire nerves every noise is C4
Lights still onbut I'm not there anymore
Sensitivity to my daughter crying rocketed
Love her more than life but my body's blocking it
Can't be alone with her when I'm shutting down
That sentence alone nearly tears me down
Between a rock and a hard place believe me
Heart says stay nervous system says leave me
Heart keeps fighting but it's losing now
Body exits before I work out how
Fear and anxiety when they come home
Goddamn prisoner in my own damn home
Afraid to leave just as afraid to stay
Two sides of a coin flipped every day
Two choices that I couldn't make
Two sides clashing nothing translates
Two people I love caught inside this storm
It isn't what they doit's how I'm worn
Two to the Chest resurfaced again
Same internal war different weapon
Not fighting this one alone this time
Asked for help before I lost my mind
Shut it down shut it down
Nervous system pulls the power before a sound
Doesn't give me a choice this time around
Too much inputshut this shit down
So I hide in my Fortress lock the door
Every small sound feels like one thing more
Tripwire nerves every noise is C4
Lights still onbut I'm not there anymore
I thought if I mapped every thread
I could stop what happened in my head
Thought understanding meant control
But I can name every piece and still lose the whole
So this time I said it out loud
Before the silence swallowed every sound
I don't need another summit by myself
I understand it
Now I need help
Shut it down shut it down
Nervous system pulls the power before a sound
Still don't get a choice when it comes around
But I won't disappear without making a sound
I might hide in my Fortress lock the door
But somebody knows what I'm hiding for
Tripwire nerves every noise is C4
Lights still on
I'm reaching out before
I'm not there anymore
Written by: Kid With The Light
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