Lord Can You Help Me

Ok... y'all gotta lay back Just lay back and listen to my story, you know? Holup, lemme drink something real quick You know... y'all just... Y'all don't know why I'm the way that I am But this is why... this what... This is what I'ma explain. Holup. Holup This the way that I am Because, you know I been moving all around the whole world my whole life and $h!7 You know? I don't... Just lemme clarify this, yo Uh Now growing up across the globe made me lost in my mind And as a kid, I felt like "criss-crossed" up in time And I didn't realize it then, I never did notice That it put a strain on my mind and kept me unfocused Lord knows I just wanted a regular life But two years, give or take a few, was never alright Mama working all the time like my step-dad did So they could bring us all the things they never had as a kid We was always on the move and that's what made me unstable Cuz I had to follow them, and go the places they'd go Alone in this world, I couldn't grow with a friend Every time in my mind I'm starting over again And even though I had a lot of friends up til today Like a privilege in life they all was taken away And that's what led me to believe that I was weak in my mind That's why I never showed the pain that I was keeping inside It's like Lord, can You help me? And wash away my sins? Forgive me for the evil that I did. Why they jealous? I did a little dirt in my life I keep embellished But all I wanna hear now, the sounds of this and relish Lord, can You help me? And wash away my sins? Forgive me for the evil that I did. Why they jealous? I did a little dirt in my life I keep embellished But all I wanna hear now, the sounds of this and relish Uh See, as a child I never understood the meaning of life I thought my parents were unfair and never treated me right Cuz every time I moved away it left emotional scars Had me activated like I'm a remote controlled car But that was just the thoughts of an adolescent in fear Now I understand they taught me 20 lessons a year Blinded by the fact that I was asinine and insane But still compelled by the ways the sun would shine in the rain Bad dreams left me panicking and crying in pain Cuz I didn't know the truth, I started lying in vain A lot of things I did wrong that I'm determined to change I'm on the right road but some be tryna swerve in my lane Everybody wanna live my life, but take it from me My life ain't everything that people try to make it to be I'm tryna double up with what I got with less than a chance And I pray to God that this ain't where I'm destined to land Lord, can You help me? And wash away my sins? Forgive me for the evil that I did. Why they jealous? I did a little dirt in my life I keep embellished But all I wanna hear now, the sounds of this and relish Lord, can You help me? And wash away my sins? Forgive me for the evil that I did. Why they jealous? I did a little dirt in my life I keep embellished But all I wanna hear now, the sounds of this and relish I remember being broke without a dime to my name Falling asleep every night while I was crying in shame A silhouette of a man, to me, who could have been Jesus Performed an exorcism on me and got rid of my demons And if this'll be my last words I'm destined to write I pray The Lord will be merciful and bless me tonite And forgive me for my sins cuz I know that I need it Every time I lied, stole and every time that I cheated And anything else I did that's considered a sin Temptation's sweet on the outside but bitter within Like my Last Will and Testament, I'll leave you with this Half of y'all will wish me well but I can see through your wish And half of that half is jealous with malevolent minds But I still hope y'all prosper and develop with time Cuz if its anything I got at all it's something to prove And I'm a desperate individual with nothing to lose! Lord, can You help me? And wash away my sins? Forgive me for tha evil that I did. Why they jealous? I did a little dirt in my life I keep embellished But all I wanna hear now, the sounds of this and relish Lord, can You help me? And wash away my sins? Forgive me for tha evil that I did. Why they jealous? I did a little dirt in my life I keep embellished But all I wanna hear now, the sounds of this and relish Amen So So that's basically it That's like the story of my life, you know? You know In case y'all wondering what I'm eating right now I'm just eating Pringle's, man Eating Pringle's and slamming down some chocolate And drinking my Vanilla Coke So, um I hope everybody out there Gets the message to this song You know what I'm saying? And we out... and we out... and we out