Sins

There is no peace and quiet In the silence I am deafened Screaming in my ear telling me to take back what I've done The choices I have made they haunt me every time I close my eyes But never do I let that show, I'm not the man you think you know Take a look inside my head and you will see the sins You thought I could never commit Such a selfish decision made to keep me sane Plays on my mind now every day I am the product of the decision made Back when i signed it all away I can't forgive myself Every day I say I will be okay But not when writing word on page Why can't it fade This is my deepest, darkest moment The reason I can never honestly say that I am alright But look at me, I still breath Even when the sadness takes it's hold on me I still breath I try to never let my problems get you down So I just keep them to myself This is the one time I won't lie Help me escape my own mind Come to me for help and I will gladly put out my hand I contain all my demons so it's easy for me to understand Not for one second do I ask you to listen to me instead Because my punishment is to be silenced Never speak of this again If letting go was as simple as the words imply I'd have gone through that process one hundred thousand times But the pain of that day is like a scar that won't fade Try hiding behind a mask as long as I have I don't care in the end if this all fades away Having coped for so long I know how to get through the day Every day I say I will be okay But not when writing word on page, why can't it fade? I try to never let my problems get you down So I just keep them to myself This is the one time I won't lie Help me escape my own mind I am the product of the decision made Back when I signed it all away I'm not the man you think you know I try to never let my problems get you down So I just keep them to myself This is the one time I won't lie Help me escape my own mind