Crossin' Fingers

It's late at night I let the phone ring and ring But no one picks up I try to pretend You must be asleep I try to convince myself But I know where you are I know you're with him There ain't no secrecy I read all your diaries I know he's more than a friend Lovin' ain't lyin' And lyin' ain't lovin' You say, "it's true, I swear to you" But you're crossin' fingers again It's later now I stare at the ceiling fan I follow the blades I wish you were dead Or it was a dream The two of you together But I'm not asleep There's a pain in my head I'm an unworthy Student of philosophy My arguments won't change a thing I mail you proofs everyday And there's no doubt that you should stay But you'll do what you wanna do And I know that you'll go away Jealousy Is what saved me From believing the lies From doubting the truth Jealousy Is what saved me From believing the lies From doubting the truth Jealousy Is what saved me