Forever Close My Eyes

In midst of such madness I grasped that elusive real You believe to know those surrounding your visual So typical of life to slap me, to humiliate Left irate I rely only on my hidden traits to stay the tide All is mine to lose in my mind, although I have already lost all I am appalled by these very friendly sights I remain polite in proper society They view me as the sewer My yesterdays don't matter now, they're gone Your careless expression left my wrists torn Yesterdays don't matter now, you're gone Shattered glass of empty bottles cut my palms Saturated thoughts of you weigh so heavy On a mind so weary Always thought we'd have plenty Never thought I'd be here now, Without she who breaths for me I gasp for that life Oh, to lay my head 'mongst your curves Oh, to speak those words I stare from broken window Eyes fixed upon your symbol I suppose all things do pass Wrist grazing glass, White light at last gathers at feet caked in earth My movements submerged by thickness in words I laid my head 'mongst your curves I've grown too old for your tones of voice to scold Attempt evils untold I'll fold when you laugh again I'll smile when I'm dead My yesterdays don't matter now, they're gone Your careless expression left my wrists torn Yesterdays don't matter now, you're gone Shattered glass of empty bottles cut my palms Does that keep you content? My blood flows a velvet red Into that familiar stream of tears With passion I spit upon that empty face Were you disgraced when I broke your sacred circle? I must admit I was afraid this world would hurt you As you hurt me Crossed paths to speak but for an instant Now gone without one trace What is it about my vocal pattern which leaves me speaking to self? Ugly blood pours from a warm heartfelt vase Flowers scattered on a cold stone floor Connect nevermore I am torn by my lack of emotions and plentitude of tears Callous heart hurts none, yet weeps Am I dead lord? Am I dead? My yesterdays don't matter now, they're gone Your careless expression left my wrists torn Yesterdays don't matter now, you're gone Shattered glass of empty bottles cut my palms What happened to the times we spent dreaming of days to come? So invincible then, Before these times I learned to bleed On my knees I prayed for us As what we were slipped between my fingers Those memories still linger Anger permeates It's not our idiosyncrasies which leave us ill I wish to build, yet it seems all I touch dies Endless drone of sighs to convince this world we exist Loveless bliss Content just to be spent at nights end Fish for your reasons in the sea of ignorance As if in trance, succumb to an ageless waltz of thought Why were we brought together only to fall apart? My yesterdays don't matter now, they're gone Your careless expression left my wrists torn Yesterdays don't matter now, you're gone Shattered glass of empty bottles cut my palms I gaze upon you one final time I only gaze to truly know what was once mine I toast with final swig of liquid life Lay my head 'mongst familiar curves And forever close my eyes