Shadow

Calling for the last time Caught a glimpse of it Through shifting eyes I see them looking at me From right outside of my window I see the monsters that creep They lurk when I'm sparkin' my indo Holdin' the smoke 'till I choke I won't breathe 'till it exit my airways Copin' by I'm hopin' tomorrow is bette rI dwell in the stairway Fuck it, I just wanna drive I love the feelin' of feelin' alive Do you ever contemplate suicide? Fallin' asleep on his shoulder while I Cry in my pillow alone in my bed Smother the sound of the voice in my head Losin' my voice so I speak with a pen Writin' agendas so I can pay rent This is my life This is not shit you can cut with a knife No tension here but the stress is as thick as The buds I've been breakin' and smokin'all night Why do I write all about me? Why can't you see all the things that I see? Am I alive, is my brain just pullin' tricks on me? Get out alive or just live in a dream Sorry I suck I'm full of shit, I do not give a fuck I got disorders and folders inside of me, tucked Undiagnosed but I know I am fucked Up in my head Writin' about it again and again It's gettin' harder to write songs about flowers When showers are cold and my phone's always dead I think that I am fine When I'm alone in my Bed with my bong packed tight My throat's been sore all night Sip that water quick Before you might get sick Tacks and thorns will prick My words will never stick My words will never stick My words will never stick My words will never stick