Hidden Tears

Could you picture love without an end? Picture love without the tears? Picture life without a friend? And picture life without no fears? And what if we embraced our years? What if we embraced our years? What if we embraced our years, and we ain't ever look back? What if we replaced tears with love, happiness and laughs? And what if there was no sadness? What if there was no sadness? What if we ain't ever feel hurt and all we ever felt was joy? What if we ain't feel unsure and always knew where we were going Just what if? Could you picture that? Yo, I'm so lost inside my mind I feel like I'm out of time I'm so tired of mama crying I'm so tired of people dying I'm so tired of saying goodbye I'm so tired of holding tight I'm so tired of feeling tired I just wanna' close my eyes I don't wanna' see tomorrow And everyday that follows I can't relate to no one I've grown sick of all these convos Everything seems pointless I feel like I'm voiceless No one understands this not my choice I can't control this Depression has me captive I know I should be grateful, but I take this shit for granted Honestly, I'm sorry If I could change I really would, but this is who I am and I'll forever be misunderstood I'm just a product of what God made I'm just a product of a flawed Man with heartaches I'm just a product of a broken soul I'm just a fallen angel walking down this lonely road I don't know man I wish I had answers for the way I felt I wish I knew why I hold this burden deep within I don't do this shit on purpose I don't choose to feel this way It's much deeper than that And sometimes it kills me because I see everyone else happy I see my family My friends They just seem so much stronger mentally, And me, I'm so fucking vulnerable And I just don't get it And that scares me That scares me because I'm wearing out You know I try and tell people be strong But what does that mean when I'm running out of strength myself? You know? It's like It's like, it's like I just can't catch happiness anymore man If depression was a switch I would flick it off right now But depression's like a bitch that don't like to see you smile She will kick you when you're down and she will trip you when you're up She will stick you to the ground and she will hit you in the gut I've been dealing with this shit for years And I hide the pain amongst my peers When I explain it's like nobody hears Only if They saw these hidden tears I've been dealing with this shit for years And I hide the pain amongst my peers When I explain it's like nobody hears Only if They saw these hidden tears Only if you saw these hidden tears You would see I'm suffering You would know that I'm sincere and I've had just enough of me I don't like no company I much prefer to be alone Distant from my loved ones and hardly am I ever home I just wanna' run away Somewhere where the sun is grey Somewhere where there's no such thing as pain and no such thing as hate Somewhere where I'll be okay Someday I will be okay No I can't promise you I'll stay No longer holding on as I slowly slip away To live another day means to fight another war Forgive and always pray but I can't do that shit no more I could tell my faith is dying I'm trapped inside my own asylum I lost myself and I can't find 'em If I off myself I'll probably find 'em Yeah I could tell my faith is dying I'm trapped inside my own asylum I lost myself and I can't find 'em If I off myself I'll probably find 'em