Novocaine

Every night the light fades, my happiness goes with it When your heart broke, and you're scarred, and you can't stitch it There's something missing in me, a space that I can't fill in There's got to be an answer out there, but what is it? I'm second-guessing everything I feel inside within I'm insecure, I'm sad, I'm not comfortable in my skin I never chose to be me or live in this life of sin Some say better days are ahead, but I'm not convinced I lost everything I had, there's nothing left to obtain I'm followed by gray clouds, I'm over this shit, I'm drained Drowning in emotions, I'm drenched in December rain I'll find a way to numb the pain, Novocaine Pathetic but poetic, I'm irrelevant to most All I need is anesthetics then I'll be okay to go Give me everything you got, I don't care if I overdose 'Cause I'll be a lost cause until I'm decomposed God, I might be finished, I don't think I wanna live God, I might be finished, I don't think I wanna live I wonder what my purpose is, I wonder what it is I'm a disappointment, I got nothin' left to give You don't know this feeling, you and me are not the same You don't know this feeling, you and me are not the same I'll find a way to numb the pain, Novocaine I'll find a way to numb the pain, Novocaine Time is ticking, what's the difference if I wanna end it sooner? Losin' interest, I don't listen, I don't think about the future I'm psychotic, real talk, I got a twisted sense of humor Man I wish that I was cooler, but I'm just a fuckin' loser Quit misleading me repeatedly and tricking me with words They deceive me, now they leaving me, they kick me to the curb If I cut myself 'cause of them, they won't even be concerned That is no exaggeration, I just speak what I observe God, I might be finished, I don't think I wanna live God, I might be finished, I don't think I wanna live I wonder what my purpose is, I wonder what it is I'm a disappointment, I got nothin' left to give You don't know this feeling, you and me are not the same You don't know this feeling, you and me are not the same I'll find a way to numb the pain, Novocaine I'll find a way to numb the pain, Novocaine