Right Now

Let's talk about right now, yeah Like right now My pops beating cancer what's a fight now I wonder if he'd say it's cool to cry now And if he died now name would never die out My parents split my momma been in agony My daddy sick in secret that's impacting me The only good to come of those is honesty I hope to get the uncut will you promise me Recently me and my brother had a conversation I was contemplating wondering if should say shit All the time was wasted just needed communication Respectfully I had to show em that I'm dedicated Decimating anybody standing in way of Me thumbing through paper Come see what I'm made of aye It's penny don't play dumb My verses is A1 Got deals like heyayyone wait I can feel 30 creeping up Think it's funny how I went from keeping up to be in front Staying true than be a front Smoking runts to keep it blunt Landlord post eviction I was struggling for months And I ain't had nowhere to run But I ain't overthink that shit I had faith I'm Gods son Gods child heaven sent Don't even ask me where I'm from 1st place lead again don't even ask if I won What's winning if I never get the chance to live Should I measure my success on how I do it big Is it money that I want or is it your attention Do you know how much I love you did i forget to mention All that staying silent i do to suppress the tension I remember writing hits while sitting in detention Now I'm sitting scribbling in thoughts I hope you listening Hood pharmaceuticals I used to put prescriptions in And I can't hold hands Slow dance or romance Ima cold hearted nigga giving love no chance I put trust in no man cause God got me You could never stop me Forever cocky on the V's, on da hooks Im rocky You be trying it's stretch to over look me stop it Place ya coins on Penny T that's how you up your profit Here's a question what's the finer things in life really Is money, fame or people that ya love dearly Is pussy that you in that give you real feeling Is it beach front out in Caicos wit ya team chilling Real talk I need millions for me and mines Cause the means don't justify the ends Every generation in my family sinned for me to win Now the Holy the spirit over me I can't let demons in Hate me but I love you So just hit me if you need a friend And if I die through my children you'll see me again, me again nigga