What You Know

What you know about flipping paychecks to support your habit All you know is that you're sick and you got to have it You ain't even ballin, you're falling apart And you don't really even know how you done let it grab you What you know is that before you went to kindergarten You had learned all about the way that life got started The birds and the bees, cause you was forced to your knees You would scream, but you couldn't, you were closely guarded Now the problem is, it didn't stop there Just give it a few years and there's another in the lair With a knife to your throat and a deadly stare Causing a whole lot of damage, you were trying to repair With a band-aid the size of a corner bag Because you couldn't afford to let them see just how bad All of you was laying wide open on the slab Desperate to try to quiet the parts of you going mad (What you know about it) Going through it all alone, living in a house that'll never be a home (What you know about it) Trying so hard not to fall apart, while you're only ever carrying a broken heart (What you know about it) Looking in the mirror at an empty space, trying not to carry all the pain on your face (What you know about it) Standing even though you're crumbling from the weight, and soaked to the bone from the rainy days (What you know about it) Watchin em close the casket, you would never be the same Ain't no sense in askin If you were okay, cause there ain't no way After you saw the brains scattered in the cab to mask it The last thing that you ever spoke was hatred And now you carry with you all the things that make it The very reason you could never even come close to the person you would be If you ain't decide to waste it Now take it all away to another extreme, wondering why you had to live to see these things Having waking nightmares and shattered dreams While they locked you up and guinea-pigged you out the seams Psych med after psych ward and all the while You just wanted them to see you were a broken child But they never did, so you had to grow up quick And make sure you only let them see you take your lick (What you know about it) Going through it all alone, living in a house that'll never be a home (What you know about it) Trying so hard not to fall apart, while you're only ever carrying a broken heart (What you know about it) Looking in the mirror at an empty space, trying not to carry all the pain on your face (What you know about it) Standing even though you're crumbling from the weight, and soaked to the bone from the rainy days (What you know about it)