Trauma

Growin' up I never had a lot of money I never had a phone, always was a little hungry Used to find it hard to sleep when I could hear my mother sobbing I was ten back then I didn't have a room, had to buy used shoes I hid behind tunes to avoid abuse And every time I fell I would blame it on myself Even if it was an accident Maybe it's not what I want Oh, I've seen better days, and the moment fucking sucks But I'll be damned if I don't stop And honestly, why not when nobody gives a fuck? But sometimes I just can't help myself I want to give up trying and start doing something else Sometimes I just get overwhelmed I know it's in my mind but I think I need some help 'Cause sometimes I just can't help myself I was an outcast Thrown out to dry and get laughed at Too shy to talk about home I always thought life was supposed to be cold Oh, I've been so lost without hope I got a window in my head, it's a casket You know I be wishing I was dead, but I mask it Maybe it's not what I want Oh I've seen better days, and the moment fucking sucks But I'll be damned if I don't stop And honestly why not when nobody gives a fuck? But sometimes I just can't help myself I want to give up trying and start doing something else Sometimes I just get overwhelmed I know it's in my mind but I think I need some help Because it's all I know My hand's around my throat Pray that I won't let go this time around But every single time I try to shut my eyes I see the reason why I'm not alone Sometimes I just can't But sometimes I just can't help myself I want to give up trying and start doing something else Sometimes I just get overwhelmed I know it's in my mind but I think I need some help Sometimes I just can't help myself