hurt myself

Maybe if I hurt myself You could be the bandage I don't wanna ask for help You'd call it baggage I can't lose my mental health 'Cause I never had it If I hurt my, maybe if I hurt myself I learned love was destruction No truth and no discussion Felt so safe in the chaos Fuck, I think I was brainwashed My tears are just like dust you sweep under the rug, yeah My fears, my blood will teach me how to love Now watch me as I try and breathe underwater What if I just killed my father's daughter? What if I wore my trauma Like a badge of honor? You'd see me, yeah Maybe if I hurt myself You could be the bandage I don't wanna ask for help You'd call it baggage I can't lose my mental health 'Cause I never had it If I hurt my, maybe if I hurt myself I'm dying for attention You met me with aggression And promised me protection Funny how it works out like that 'Cause now I'm your protection Use your love as a weapon You'd think I'd learn my lesson So why do I run back? Watch me as I try and breathe underwater What if I wore my trauma Like a badge of honor? Maybe if I hurt myself You could be the bandage I don't wanna ask for help You'd call it baggage I can't lose my mental health 'Cause I never had it If I hurt my, maybe if I hurt myself Na-na, na-na Na-na-na-na-na Na-na, na-na Maybe if I hurt myself Na-na, na-na Na-na-na-na-na If I hurt my, maybe if I hurt myself If I hurt my, maybe if I hurt myself