In It For The Pain

Well I know what you're thinking You never could quite hide your fears And I don't hang around enough To be the one that lasts throughout the years You know I had the best intentions And I know you had the same But I don't wanna close this chapter of my life Without someone to blame So I blame it all on you And how you live your life And I know all the words to say To break you down and cut you like a knife And there I go Like I always do I pack my bags and get on that road And leave you there to cry I never even say goodbye Walked out that door Well you wanted a change But there was no one left to blame So you just stay the same It's like I'm in it for the pain I never even call your name, like I did before Now I'm in this old hotel room And I think about your smile Staring at your number on my phone Scared to death to touch the dial I throw the phone back on the table And I go on with my day And I put you in the backside of my mind And I guess that's where you will stay And there I go Like I always do I pack my bags and get on that road And leave you there to cry I never even say goodbye Walked out that door Well you wanted a change But there was no one left to blame So you just stay the same It's like I'm in it for the pain I never even call your name, like I did before Well I know what you're thinking You never could quite hide your fears And I don't hang around enough To be the one that lasts for all the years