Stuck in such a whirling tide

Where the hate pulled at me

Even if I close my eyes

It won't prevent me from taking a dive

Stuck in such a whirling tide

And, the hate, it made me blind

Even if I close my eyes

It won't save me from a dive

I see me drown

Ignoring all around

I see me drown

Crushing all around

On the road for a long trip started years and years ago. The kind of things I wished I could live since I was a little child. And it was such a nice one. I mean, just close your eyes and imagine :

A group of friends that love each other so much, going away to do something they love to do. Sounds like a dream don't you think? It should've been but the truth is different and it ended as a nightmare. Why? Why? Oh why? 'Cause I became a dirt

I totally lost myself building a shield around me, trying to look strong thinking it would protect me from suffering

I refused to own up my feelings, my weaknesses, my sensitivity, to forgive myself for my mistakes and I felt alone, oh so alone

I became so negative, so aggressive with the people that count the most for me and I hated and hated and hated myself

Even then you reached your hand down to me and pulled me out to the surface

Fuck it! I love you guys!