IF I

When the quiet gets too loud

And there's nobody around

I'm terrified

Of what I'll find

If I ever come back down

Waking up in a cold sweat

In a warm bed

Stuck in my head, again

What if I never know best

Of what's gonna come next

Anxiety sets in again

I'm over this

I'm overwhelmed

I self inflict another breakdown

That I just want to forget

When the quiet gets too loud

And there's nobody around

I'm terrified

Of what I'll find

If I ever come back down

Just a face lost in the crowd

And ain't nobody cares about

I'm terrified

Of what I'll find

If I let everybody down

(If I let everybody down)

I self destruct, I lose most fights

I waste the day then fear the night

'Cause in the dark, there's no white lies

To hide me

I try to change, say I'm okay

Throw on a smile that fades away

I lost the spark to fan the flame

That defines me

And when I'm old, with no more days

And someone goes to dig my grave

A stranger speaks 'cause no one came

I blame, I blame, I blame it on me

I blame, I blame, I blame it on me