I will not wake up yet again with the shadow of everything. I will not do this anymore. I don't care what it takes, I don't care what I have to do, but I will not be a victim of this anymore

I have tried countless fucking times to get out from under it, but this time it has to stick because I will not do this anymore! I will not allow myself to be crushed by this darkness!

I will not allow myself to be torn apart and watch myself live a half life! I will not let myself do this anymore!

So, I don't care how bad it hurts, I don't care much pain there is, I don't care how much pain there is, I am getting out from under this!

I say no more! I say stop! I say give me the pain, give me the hurt! Let me make a goddamn mistake and for once in my life!