Safer

I know that i have issues, I face them, I swear. Think I overcome them Then turn - they're still there. Wish that I was different I'd like to let go. But when I try to change There's my past, saying no. Maybe it's all 'cause of dad, His new kids, his new wife Or why not just blame mom Who's been nuts my whole life... When you've felt so alone since The moment of brith And you're struggled to find Your own true sense of worth When it seems there is no one Across this whole earth To depend upon, you carry on Just like you always do 'Cause it's safer to rely on you. Oh, it's safer to rely on you. Seen a million movies All selling true love. Fantasies I'm not sure That I'm worthy of. Caution to the wind My heart's been on display. Still the end result is It's not gone my way. So when I date some new guy Who's a deadbeat or jerk At least I'm not so crushed When it all doesn't work... When you once, unafraid, Wore your heart on your sleeve And the ones that you loved Chose to just turn and leave Every day it gets harder to Somehow believe You will survive, so you strive Just to keep up your guard 'Cause it's safer to hold every card. Oh, it's safer to hold every card. I feel out of control I feel safe on the ground. I go building up walls Yet I wish to be found. A true contradiction to which I am bound As I keep on spinning around and around... And I look at the people Who've worked it all out And I wonder why I'm still A bundle of doubt and sometimes I wanna just stand up and shout... "Just commit and deal with it Before your life flies by... Don't let your life fly by ..." But is it safer? Maybe it's safer If I don't try