Pamela

Close my eyes and you're still with me In the trees, feel locusts buzzing But I never can keep my eyes closed long enough And no amount of dreaming can bring you back, so I can't remember if I told you I loved you That morning out on the lake, you called for your mother And my heart broke into a million pieces A kind of darkness you just never get used to So I stare at the lake Buying my time Waiting to die Waiting to die Waiting to die Waiting to die Waiting to die Wonder if all this pain I carry is Strong enough to lift your body from the water and Make you be alive again I think stupid things like this all the time, but I would gladly trade my life for yours If only the water could bargain If only they had been watching I can't turn back, only face forward, but I would gladly trade my life for yours If only the water could bargain If only they had been watching I can't turn back, only face forward Open my eyes now, task in front of me And your voice is always calling But I can't control the rage inside of me Spill the blood 'til the world is done with me I want you to know right now that I loved you When you left, it almost killed your mother But something inside me propels me forward A kind of rage you just never get used to So I stare at the lake Buying my time Waiting to die Waiting to die Waiting to die Waiting to die Waiting to die And everything that I touch is dead Everything that I wanted is gone Nothing before me now but pain Nothing before me but pain And your voice Your voice, of course Someday I'll reach you In my dreams, I can reach you So I stare at the lake Buying my time Waiting to die Waiting to die Waiting to die Waiting to die Waiting to die Cutting the meat Forest of meat Spill their blood Spilling their blood And resurrect my son Resurrect my son Resurrect my son Resurrect my son Stare at the lake Biding my time Waiting to die Waiting to die