Guilt

I can't forgive myself for the things I've done It's like every bad decision I've made has led me to this point Guess it's all my fault that I've grown into a man I hate And now I'm all alone (Blame it on me) This excessive guilt is making me feel sick (And I can't seem) To escape my own reality Give me a break I've had enough of all the fucking what-ifs And constant overthinking 'Cause I'm about to lose my mind over some stupid shit Trying so hard to accept my mistakes, my regrets Yet, here I am with the same thoughts stuck in my head So go ahead and blame it on me (I already do anyway) It's just who I am I'm unable to change the way I think A broken record of the same old things I've tried to bury, and I know it doesn't make any sense But I can't forgive what I can't forget 'Cause of the guilt that keeps on weighing me down It's like my, it's like my inner voice is telling me lies So now I'm, so now I'm fighting every feeling inside Before I spiral down to where I wanna fucking die Always ending up in the same place Over and over again Damn, I just can't believe I am Always ending up in the same place Over and over a- I wish I could forget all that I've done wrong It's like every bad decision I've made has led me to this point And now I'm all alone Without knowing what to do or say It's hard to explain But it's so easy being hard on yourself when you're not well And to turn to self-blame When it's in your DNA Blame it on me This excessive guilt makes me feel sick And I can't fucking seem To set myself free