After

I can't take anymore

I can't breathe

I'm sick of this goddamn darkness, sick of sadness and tears

I throw it all up every single day, together with last night's dinner

I have lost myself completely

I have convinced myself I am someone else

For God's sake

I need to be real, I need touch

I need people?

I have to turn my life around

But I will still be myself, won't I?