歌词
Gimme back my life
Cause I've been sittin home alone
Waiting for my chance
Not knowing when it's gone
They say time flys
What about the other side
I know it's okay to cry
Why the fuck does it have to be me
I felt this way since my father died
It was a suicide
How could you take your own life
Lettin momma find you when you couldn't wipe the tears from her eyes
So it's gotta be me
& Ima stay true
Everything I ever told
You
I promise I will do
Just a young kid doin big shit
Livin out in LA
Searchin for the truth
Finding out the answers my own
So it's time for me go
This might be my last goodbye
Since I never got the chance too say it right
Just know you saved my life
I gotta change the stars for myself
I know my health great oh well
Smoke too much
Even Stay up late
Tryna find my place
In this big ass world
I know you see me
But I don't see you
Unless I close my eyes
& that's the damn truth
Even then
I can't remember what your voice sounds like
Or your laugh, man this doesn’t feel right
Dad
I wish we took more pics
Or went on more trips
Maybe I wouldn't feel this way
Maybe I wouldn't have to smoke shit
Maybe mom wouldn't have to take pills every time her depression hit
Yeah She's depressed n shit
Just know I won't back down
Yeah I'm never gon quit
Yeah I'm never gon quit
Check it
Im not doin this alone
Ive got two souls inside
I'm goin in strong
Middle finger
To the cops
You did Every damn time they were lockin you up
& it didn't only happen once
Scared for my life
Cause you was beatin us up
I was just a lil youngin
So I wasn't that tough
& You were all fucked up
Yeah you were all fucked up
My phone call was the only reason they were even pickin you up
Shit fucked me up
Imagine being a youngin
Callin the cops on your pops
Then they show up and the tazer guns pops
As he drops
I thought my old man got shot
Cause of me
Why the fuck can't I let shit be
All I wanted to do was get him the that I thought he would need
I guess I called the wrong number
Cause they put him in a cell butt naked
With a hole in the ground
Sayin Motha fucka that's where you pee
Dad Why you gotta be a drug feign for
Everything would've been so sick
If you didn't get so sick
Yeah
The Mental illness hit
&
He's so infected
Rotting from the drugs he once did
Probably wishin he could go back to bein a kid
Change everything
Even me
Damn
Yeah I know I wasn't the best
But I never meant to make you stress
Never thought that all those times that I got straight Fs
Would lead something like this
Now you're gone & this is how I vent
With a pen and a pad
Instead of talkin to somebody like a normal person
This is fuckin all I have
&
I'll make it
I'm not fakin
Yeah I'm takin the chance
Im gonna be great because I know I am
You taught me that
You were a hard ass worker
But you also showed me everything not do
&
I thank you for that
Yeah I should hate you for that
But if you hear me say I hate you
I ain't takin it back
I gotta change the stars for myself
I know my health great oh well
Smoke too much
Even Stay up late
Tryna find my place
In this big ass world
Listen
I know you see me
But I don't see you
Unless I close my eyes
& that's the damn truth
Even then
I can't remember what voice sounds like
Or your laugh, man this feel right
Dad
I wish we took more pics
Or went on more trips
Maybe I wouldn't feel this way
Maybe I wouldn't have to smoke shit
Maybe mom wouldn't have to take pills every time her depression hit
Yeah She's depressed n shit
Just know I won't back down
Yeah I'm never gon quit
Yeah I'm never gon quit
Suicide man
It ain't no joke
&
If you're ever feelin down
Call a friend instead of the rope
All you need is someone to listen
Someone to help you stop the demons from wisperin
Puttin all those fucked up things in position
So what I'm gettin at
Is I Miss you pops
Every time the coo coo clock tocks
It makes me start thinkin a lot
Like what life would be like
With you Still on this rock
Okay my dreams all I've got
I gotta get it
Woah
Written by: Cody Bolton
