Second Letter from St. Julien (Rearranged 2018)

You say there's a God

And you say you've got proof

Well I've lost friends to heroin

So what's your god trying to prove?

You say, He's alive

The Spirit flows through your veins

Well, I guess my best friend

Was just trying to help the Spirit escape

And if there's a God

Do I make Him proud?

Put a smile on His face?

My mother, she gave me a crucifix

Said, pray to Anthony if you lose this

Well, how can I believe in God if He won't believe in me?

I let my anxiety overwhelm me

Tell me, why am I blessed with this curse?

That rips holes in my head

And puts holes in my chest

And keeps me feeling, maybe I'd be better dead

I wanna get over the feeling

That I'll never be good enough

And if there's a God

Do I make Him proud?

Put a smile on her face?

And if you're with God

Am I making you proud

By waking up each day?

And if you're with God

Well, I hope you're proud