shadow (feat. Jesstaylo & Sarah Juers)

It goes dark

And it is most definitely a moment of utter disorientation

Utter lostness, no warmth, no life, no movement

Love you so much that the issues I used to hold onto

Are nothin', they're minuscule

Love you so much that I make it up to you

Whenever I flip like reciprocals

Love you so much that I blocked all my exes

I blocked all the exits, I'm with you forever

Love you so much that I don't even trip

When they say that I'm sick and they ridicule

Love you so much that I gave up addiction

I stopped all the clickin', and now it's all clickin'

Love you so much that I changed my old number

So all their attempts are just pitiful

Love you so much that I stopped sayin' thot

Now I see women as God's children

I see their souls and their hearts glisten

Look at them glow like they're Marge Simpson

Love you so much that I save my receipts

And I watch what I eat when I'm gettin' food

Love you so much that I give up my seat

Even when I am beat and not in the mood

Love you so much that sometimes I lose sleep

'Cause I can't come to terms what I did to you

Love you so much that I ask God

To help me to smile when I'm cynical

I face these passing waves

A lonely castaway

I fight my battle

Beside my shadow

Hate me so much for the pain that I caused

To the ones that I truly hold dear

Hate me so much that it comes out in tears

Hate me so much I don't look in the mirror

Hate me so much that I slip into fantasies

Darker than Black Mirror sees us

Sometimes I feel like just leavin'

Don't need a number of reasons

Hate me so much I retreat into sleep

I'm even hiding from Jesus

Feel like I'm livin' with demons

Inside my closet allegiance

Hate me so much when I'm hurt

Then I'm happy 'cause I tell myself I deserve it

I made my bed with the serpents

And they told me that I'm worthless

Hate me so much that I don't wanna listen

When you tell me I'm a good person

But you don't give up so easy, fervent

Reminding me of my purpose

Hate me so much, but you're teachin' me love

And I think that I'm startin' to learn it

Written in crimson and cursive

Quiet and curious, perfect

I face these passing waves

A lonely castaway

I fight my battles

Beside my shadows

I face these passing waves

A lonely castaway

I fight my battles

Beside my shadows