Unloved

My legs are too thick, and then they're too small

I'm everything I hate, and then I'm nothing at all

I want him to see me, I want him to stay

But if he says he wants me, I will push him away

I skip my dinner, I paint my face

He picks me up, we stay up late

I close the door, I've lost my way

So I drown myself in pain

The food, the clothes, the boys, my drugs

I push it down, I lock it up

So many ways to waste my time

I use it all to dry up the flood

It's all because I wanna feel loved

I feel so unloved

I search for a high, a way to get by

They'll judge no matter what, so I don't really mind

I'm never enough, so I act like I'm tough

But on the inside, I just wanna cry

I weigh myself, I stuff my face

I'm half-alive, I'm so ashamed

I kiss him once, I feel nothing

So I do it all again

The food, the clothes, the boys, my drugs

I push it down, I lock it up

So many ways to waste my time

I use it all to dry up the flood

It's all because I wanna feel loved

I feel so unloved

They judge me like we're not the same

(Same) At least I know I'm in this game

We run, we hide, we feel, we cry

You can't deny, you feel the pain

Distractions won't take it away

The food, the clothes, the boys, my drugs

I push it down, I lock it up

So many ways to waste my time

I use it all to dry up the flood

It's all because I wanna feel loved (Yeah)

I feel so unloved