Anxiety

I got my finger on the trigger of a pistol

Sometimes I wish that my life was more simple

Standing so tall yet I'm feelin so crippled

Livin on the edge like should I jump out the window

And it should never be a mystery, why when I'm looking at my history

All I see is pain and Misery, all the rain when it was slippery

I'm livin too fast yeah I might catch an injury

Life is like a war and I'm fightin for the infantry

I paint a picture with my words like literary imagery

Losin all my faith, I think it's time to Call the chivalry

And when the night falls I let the dark take my dignity

I barely feel alive, feel like I wanna die

Momma telling me to strive that I shouldn't waste My time

Mom I can't explain it, it's too hard with all this pain

And l don't know where I am Goin or Why I feel so ashamed

Baby don't cry, your life will get better

I'm Askin god why I'm still cold in this sweater

Society's the reason that I'm feelin so mad

Anxiety's the reason that I'm feelin so sad

I got my finger on the trigger of a pistol

Sometimes I wish that my life was more simple

Standing so tall yet I'm feelin so crippled

Livin on the edge like should I jump out the window

And it should never be a mystery, why when I'm looking at my history

All I see is pain and Misery, all the rain when it was slippery

I'm livin too fast yeah I might catch an injury

Sometimes commitin suicide is like the only option

But I advise that before you go proceed With caution

Your life is not an auction, you gotta understand

There ain't a price that's Enough to take yourself from your fam

And all these money situations, problematic litigations, different obligations

I can't take it Anymore, so I guess it's time for my personal

Elimination

As I'm stuck inside this cell, and I'm livin in this hell

Every time that I have yelled

Ain't Nobody wanna help, ain't nobody wanna help

Baby don't cry, your life will get better

I'm Askin god why I'm still cold in this sweater

Society's the reason that I'm feelin so mad

Anxiety's the reason that I'm feelin so sad

I just wanna cry, why do I feel so alone

I don't wanna die, but I'm losin all control

I feel like I'm trapped, as I don't know where to go, If I do collapse lord take away my soul

Take me from this hardship and help me find my home

Take away this darkness it's all I've ever know

I feel so lost I feel so misunderstood, pistol to my dome as I question if I should