TONYA

And Mother, I am sorry

I never pick up

Mmm-hmm

Because I'm afraid to disappoint

Ooh, ooh-ah

Ooh no

Hey, and I've been feelin' like I don't matter

How I used to

Hey, and I've been feelin' like I don't matter

How I used to

We were sat outside on the Harvard floor

With our feet in dirt and our hearts in awe

I be losin' sleep thinkin' 'bout missed calls

And I see the names circlin' our thoughts

And I think about if we lose it all

And I turn to shit that you'd never want

Like to smoke, to drink, anything at all

And I'll say again "Sorry I don't call"

There's no money on my mind

But my money or my mind

What's the first to fall?

I never wanted this shit

Hey

Hey, and I've been feelin' like I don't matter

How I used to

Hey, and I've been feelin' like I don't matter

How I used to

Sometimes it be so spot on it hurts

Like when Auntie couldn't decide

Between goin' to work or church

I've been in my feelings

On an island in the dirt

I feel like brothers lie

Just so my feelin's don't get hurt

I said ,"I'll try vacationin'"

I'll try to run away

I deleted Facebook

I'll trade fame any day

For a quiet Texas place

And a barbecue plate

I'll switch my place if that's good for you

Is that good for you?

My ghost still haunt ya

My life is I, Tonya

A big-eyed monster

Only face to conquer

I hated songs about fame

'Cause that stuff meant nothin'

Until them headlines came

The first flight I'm stuck in

And maybe it means nothin'

But I have to say I think about you often

And if you want no part with me

I'll walk away, I know that I have wronged you

And maybe it means nothin'

But I have to say I think about you often

And if you want no part with me

I'll walk away, I know that I have wronged you

I took a plane to somewhere that I've never been

Too many times without my sister and my brother

Dad or mother by my side but they're in spirit

I always hear it

I know they feel it

My mama always had these dreams

They used to keep her up at night

I smoke to keep them all away

And make use of the time

I'm void of feelin'

The reasons I'm so out of touch

Now start revealin'

But I'm not ashamed

I'm not afraid of who I am

Or how I trust my mental

Yeah, it's not perfect, but I guess that' just the shit I'm into

I fantasize about a time when everything was simple

My shelter sheltered me from things

I needed to commit to

The way it stands to me

A victim of Stockholm in my friendships and family

What's costin' you time?

What's the reason that you whine?

What's in your wallet?

Dead whites in mine

So sour

In this light of lime

Daddy says, "Study or get that cash"

Mommy said, "Your career ain't goin' last"

Loose change, call a cab

Move out their pad

I just need chance to move

Past my past

Don't think too fast

Private jets still crash

And I still fly coach

And I still hit a roach

And I still see roaches at the crib

Where my folks still

Touch your dreams

'Fore you touch me and provoke a man

(Somebody's gonna have to tell the truth and I'm gonna tell it)

I will

I will

I don't matter

Ahh

Can I tell you how?

Can I tell you now?