Pillowcase

Come and watch me push it all away Undo any progress that I've made I'm better left undone So I lay down with the setting sun I'm so sad to see What a shame What a pity Fall right through the seams in my pillowcase And draw the blinds, drown out the light I won't bother waiting for the summer to save me Don't bother, why would I bother Why would I bother waiting for the sun Or anyone to warm the bed I've made It's just blankets in the shade Trace patterns in the dark But it's a start It's the only way I know to slow my heart It's the only way I know to slow my heart Fall right through the seams in my pillowcase And draw the blinds, drown out the light I won't bother waiting for the summer to save me Don't bother, why would I bother Please don't mind me I'm better off this way Hide beneath the trees Lost for words to say When I'm gagging on my own tongue Choking on my own lungs I'm out of breath and scared to death Of what's inside my head So I'd rather be sad than feel this way Maybe if I stay still for long enough Lying in the rough all the weeds Will finally take me to a place Where I don't have to be Scared to death of all the shit I've left inside my head Fall right through the seams in my pillowcase And draw the blinds, drown out the light I won't bother waiting for the summer to save me Don't bother, why would I bother