It's Not the Same Anymore

I'll keep the picture saved in a safe place

Wow, I look so weird here, my face has changed now

It's a big shame

So many feelings struggling to leave my mouth

And it's not that rare for me

To let myself down in a big way

But I had enough time and

I found enough reason

To accept that

It's not the same anymore

I lost the joy in my face

My life was simple before

I should be happy of course

But things just got much harder

Now it's just hard to ignore

It's not the same anymore

It's not the same anymore

It's not the same but

It's not a shame 'cause

I spent a long time putting up with people

Putting on my best face

It's only normal when you start things in the wrong way

It's only 4 o'clock and still it's been a long day

I just wanna hit the hay

People knocking on me like everyday

I'm tired of taking stress

If only there could be another way

I'm tired of feeling suppressed

And when they want me the most

I'm tired of acting like I care but I do

And I can't wait to hit the bed

But tomorrow makes me scared 'cause

It's not the same anymore

I lost the joy in my face

My life was simple before

I should be happy of course

But things just got much harder

Now it's just hard to ignore

It's not the same anymore

It's not the same anymore

Oh

Oh

I kept the feeling inside

I open up when shit gets built up this high

She makes it easy to cry

The words fall out of me and there's no more disguise

I miss the days when I was someone else

I used to be so hungry

Right now my stomach's full as hell

And I've spent many months

Just hating on myself

I can't keep wishing things would be different

Or leaving problems on the shelf

I wish I didn't need to get help but I do

But I do, oh

I been so hard on myself, yeah

Even my family can tell

And they barely saw what I felt

I wouldn't wish this on my enemy or anyone else

It's not the same

(It's not the same, it's not the same)

It's not the same as before

It's not the same anymore

And it's fine because

I've learned so much from before

Now I'm not short on advice

There's no excuses at all

No point in feeling upset

Won't take my place on the floor

I'll stand up straight like I'm tall

It's up to me, no one else

I'm doing this for myself

It's not the same anymore

It's better, it got better

It's not the same anymore

It's better, yeah, yeah