Choke

Sometimes I feel like this life is a fever dream and pretty damn soon I'll wake up screaming Is anybody out there feeling just the way I do Cause nothing's making sense yet And I still have my regrets Can't take back all the things that came before No No I'm trying to turn back the clock again To make sense of the mess that's in my head I'm lighting fires just to choke on the smoke I always choke on the smoke again I've had my setbacks before the relapse Lost track of dead ends and bad decisions I've got a lot to say but words won't be enough for you I've got a lot to prove but ain't got much to show Ain't got much to show I'm trying to turn back the clock again To make sense of the mess that's in my head I'm lighting fires just to choke on the smoke I always choke on the smoke again There's just so much I can take before I self destruct So used to seeing an end so now I'm giving up I put my heart on the line to break it time after time I need to make this stop I'm trying to turn back the clock again To make sense of the mess that's in my head I'm lighting fires just to choke on the smoke again I've wanted a reason up till now To move on and let go of the things I don't know I'm crying a river just to drown myself again