I should have focused on the love

And my health before the fame

I should have told somebody how I felt

Instead of tightening the belt around my neck

I should have asked for help

But I've been asking myself everyday

If it's too late for me to make a change

They say the grass is greener on the other side

But I took a look at mine and it looked dry

I guess they lied or maybe I am colorblind

Or maybe I forgot to give it water and I let it die

'Cos that's what I do with everything important in my life

Yeah, I make it disappear

I hide the evidence and act like it was never here

I pack my backpack and put it on my back real fast and leave

The murder scene behind my back and

never looking back at my past again

Yeah, I really need a friend

I really need someone that I can let inside my head

I'm in hell... help! I'm lonely and afraid

I really need somebody by my side until the end

'Cos nobody ever taught me how to deal with depression

So I'm doing this my way without any lessons

I'm writing down my thoughts into my book of confessions

And then I'm reading them out loud at my therapy sessions

But It's not working and I don't know why

Maybe I was made to be unhappy 'til the day I die

Or maybe my only purpose in life is to hate being alive

'Cos every single second of my life feels like a waste of time

I got bad thoughts on my mind and It's my fault I know

I should have never closed my eyes and gone blind I know

I should have never lied to myself everytime that I said

"I'll be fine" 'cos I'm not fine

I don't even know if I'm alive anymore

'Cos nobody ever taught me how to deal with depression

So I'm doing this my way without any lessons

I'm writing down my thoughts into my book of confessions

And then I'm reading them out loud at my therapy sessions

No nobody ever taught me how to deal with depression

So I'm doing this my way without any lessons

I'm writing down my thoughts into my book of confessions

And then I'm reading them out loud at my therapy sessions