Looking back I don't wanna say I

I was always living for the timeline

I just wanna have a team on my side

Spending time with the people that I love, doing what I like

But I've always got this feeling inside

Little whisper in my ear, telling me lies

That I'll never make a thing of my life

And the songs and the music are a waste of my time

But I don't wanna talk right now

I'm just trying to turn all these thoughts to a sound

So I'm sorry if my music's too loud

But the melodies and rhythms are my therapy now

Looking up, I've been talking to God

But I'll admit it doesn't happen a lot

Even though that I know that I ought to

I still get caught up in the things that I'm not

With the sin in my head

I just wish it were dead

All the things that I said

All the words I misread

Conversations I dread

I avoid them instead

While I'm lying in bed

I'm sick of hesitation, I need motivation now

I don't need a vacation, I just wanna see you smile

Life is like a marathon, I'm only on the first few miles

I'm switching the occasion, I'm-a chase my dreams right now