It’s not my fault that I can’t understand your pain

I’m going round in circles over nothing

Despite the energy I’ve spent on being you

I don’t think it’ll all amount to something

So please forgive me if I’m seeming far away

It takes a while to find the hard reset key

My body’s broken, and my psyche’s doing worse

At this point, it’d be best if you could end me

I want to fall apart again

With water in my veins

And ice inside my brain

Oh, I need to crash against the day

A slave to all I make

A teardrop in the lake

I call

It’s been a week since I’ve had a proper meal

And yet my brain still seems content to let me starve

The months just flicker by; I can’t yet bring myself

To cry for the ragged holes they carve

So I apologize for my selfishness

The ways I’ve left you powerless as I retreated back into myself

I’ve been a weight on you; I haven’t paid my dues

You know I don’t deserve your help

At the end of the universe

There is nothing but the embers of your soul

Listen close to your death drive; there is nothing left in this life

And the gods will know you chose right, but I can see the light

I want to fall in love again

With lightning in my veins

A storm inside my brain

Oh, I need to claw above the day

To care for all I make

To hear the echoed wake

I call

When the night is gone

The tides will part

All a testament to fear of moving on

I won’t let you have this one

Not until my collapsing heart turns to rust