Monologue

I will not wake yet again with the shadow of everything

I will not do this anymore

I don’t care what it takes i don’t care what I have to do

But I will not be a victim of this anymore

I have tried countless fucking times to get out from under it

But this time it has to stick because

I will not do this anymore

I will not allow myself to be crushed by this darkness

I will not allow myself to be torn apart

and watch myself live a half life

I will not let myself do this anymore

So i don’t care how bad it hurts

I don’t care how much pain there is

I don’t care how much pain there is

I am getting out from under this

I say no more

I say stop

I say give me the pain

Give me the hurt

Let me make a goddamn decision for once in my life