Darkest Places

I can hear your voice in my ear It's ringing loud, it's sharp, it's clear Calling me back to yester-year Some cruel parade of youthful days disappeared Are you sick or are you lonely? Wasting all your hours only filling my head with regret Then I said, "Wait, no, I'm not finished here yet" All this time I've been holding the space on your side of the bed I can see how it'll all play out I'll get the kids and you'll get the house That's how the world works now Things get hard, we close the book, we burn it down Are you sick or are you lonely? Wasting all your hours only filling my head with regret Everything I could have said Am I sick, or am I lonely? Wasting all my hours only filling my head with regret Then I said, "Wait, no, I'm not finished here yet" All this time I've been holding the space on your side of the bed All this time I've been holding the space on your side of the bed I've been writing everyday Just trying to rid myself of any power you might have over me Under my breath, edge of my lips Send a message, say you're proud of everything that I am now You're holding to a photograph that's faded And I try so hard to see the light behind your eyes, But how can I when you have only brought me to the darkest places? But I hold the space, I still hold the space for you