Living Hell

I got a couple different devils, they all comin' my way

I could be with you for now, but please don't ask me to stay

I don't know what I'm trying to say

I've got lots to say, lots to say, lots to say

Yeah

Hold on, I think that i'm 'bout to break

I got a couple different devils, they all comin' my way

I could be with you for now, but please don't ask me to stay

I've been dreaming of the day, they'll know that I ran away

And I don't know what i'm trying to say

Well I know but I don't know exactly how I should say it

I wrote a song for you, I watch, waiting for you to just play it

I hate myself, I hate my life, and I don't like conversation

But I'm

So happy that you're with me today

I never felt so amazing baby thank you for stayin'

I never believed in anything but thank you for prayin'

My addictions adding up just from the shit I'm portrayin'

This should cover all the shit things I say

I pick the pretty parts up out the words that work out

It's been a minute since I died and I don't think that I slept

I can never sleep at night and never got out of bed

I said please, just don't let me drown

Even if I ask you to

Even if I have to do this

I don't really know how

You got me drinking by myself

I've lost my mind and I can't tell

How I made something so beautiful into a living hell

Said I got a big problem 'cause I can't do a little

And everybody sayin' go to rehab, they don't get it

I'm not addicted to these drugs but I got other addictions

I'm just addicted to this feeling I can't find and I miss it

I walked the path to Babylon, and didn't find shit

Just me starin' at me telling me that I don't know shit

I was on my knees starin' at her hair on the sink

I don't think I'll ever lose but I don't think I could win

All this pain can be so pretty when it's covered in {?}

And I don't like bein' sober and I don't even talk

When you're playin' it's gamble but you're losin' a lot

And when you run out of that paper someone's takin' your spot

Said, this life could be amazin' or this life could be great

Well if that's true then how can I live 'cause all I feel is this pain

So I think I need somethin' don't need feelings today

And I think I need somethin' to turn the feelings away

I said please, just don't let me drown

Even if I ask you to

Even if I have to do this

I don't really know how

You got me drinking by myself

I've lost my mind and I can't tell

How I made something so beautiful into a living hell