She Was My Universe

I lost some parts of myself that i'll never get back It's like that girl took half of my soul She was my universe, I gave her everything That wasn't good enough, now I'm alone I still remember the pain that I felt When I came back and found out that she wasn't home I'm so depressed, I don't got nothin' left Not even a heart 'cause she made it explode Late nights, reminiscing about the past I was so in love with the thought of her, so attached I was so naive and I thought I could make it last That was a mistake, it was over in a flash Why did you lie? You said you would stay I don't know what I did to push you away It was my fault for trusting a snake It wasn't real, it was all fake What am I now but a spirit that's hopeless Living the rest of my days in a cage I think that she put me under hypnosis All I can feel now is sadness and rage She got me good, she reset my emotions I was just someone she wanted to play Now I'm so cold, I'm freezin', I'm frozen And I'm convinced that I'm never gon' change I lost some parts of myself that i'll never get back It's like that girl took half of my soul She was my universe, I gave her everything That wasn't good enough, now I'm alone I still remember the pain that I felt When I came back and found out that she wasn't home I'm so depressed, I don't got nothin' left Not even a heart 'cause she made it explode Left in the dark now, I'm floating in space She disappeared without leaving a trace Now she's a star that I can't help but chase Now she's a song that's been stuck on replay She's got no clue what she done to me Ever since August, I've been in recovery Everything happened so fast and so suddenly All that could mean is that she wasn't in love with me My planet was swallowed by black holes This is my funeral, black rose Edgy, emotional, black clothes Finished with life, I don't have hope It's deeper than rap, but I'm more than a rapper My story gets sadder, just flip through the chapters There's no happy ending, just death and disaster But that's no surprise, it's a similar pattern I can't pull all the knives in my back Jerking in blood, every moments' my last Cursed to revisit the times that we had She was my universe, my other half Now she's my memory, part of my past My mind is fragile, it's cracking like glass Stuck in this phase, always trapped in a trance Hiding the real me under this mask Gravity doesn't exist, if it did, then it wouldn't have Let you go driftin' into somebody else's possession I'm sick, you made so many moves that I couldn't predict I was stupid and used, a fool for your tricks I'm stuck in your shadow, a lunar eclipse Now i'm in the gallows, an endless abyss I'm hangin' on but i'm scared i might slip 'cause I lost some parts of myself that i'll never get back It's like that girl took half of my soul She was my universe, I gave her everything That wasn't good enough, now I'm alone I still remember the pain that I felt When I came back and found out that she wasn't home I'm so depressed, I don't got nothin' left Not even a heart 'cause she made it explode I lost my mom when I lost all that time And I can't help but cry when I'm losing control I was the night, I was young, I was blind If I said I was fine, that's a lie that I told I'm in the skies, i'm so ready to die This is my suicide letter that's written in code She picked a side and that side wasn't mine It was packin' her shit up and hittin' the road