I was goin' through it

I was goin' through it

I was goin' through it

I've been thinking about the good (I've been thinking about the good)

I've been writing about the remainder

If I feel need for pain (If I feel need for pain)

You're on retainer

I was goin' through it (I was goin' through it)

I was goin' through it

Let me explain, yeah

I was goin' through it (I was goin' through it)

I was goin' through it

Let me explain, yeah

She was holding me down

Started with the highs

The king wore his crown

Then she held me down

She don't want me around

Can't breathe

Feel like I drowned

Everything is fallin' around me

Feel like collapsing

No solution to the pain

Anxiety is taxing

Trying to pretend everything's alright

In reality for air I'm just gasping

No the way it went down just ain't right

I've been trying to reach your phone all damn night

Begging to let me fix this situation

Making promises it'll be alright

I've been thinking about the good (I've been thinking about the good)

I've been writing about the remainder

If I feel need for pain (If I feel need for pain)

You're on retainer

I was goin' through it (I was goin' through it)

I was goin' through it

Let me explain, yeah

I was goin' through it (I was goin' through it)

I was goin' through it

Let me explain, yeah

From that point on it was never the same

She clocked out and occasionally in again

She wanted me on her own time

But never all the time because she didn’t wanna have to depend

We can't even be friends

I can't go on

Feel like my heart's broken

I don't even need amends

Never be that right moment

Never felt hatred

'Til that time, place, and when

So much betrayal

What I said isn't what I meant

She just responds, "If you say so"

Ducking from her messages

Really need to lay low

Before I go off in detail

She fills my mind up with unwanted thoughts

False hope as too much is lost

Time has struck twelve

It's come and gone

Can't tell you how I've felt

Still embracing the fall

I keep swaying if I ever got enough

I slip up with a text

Tell her tonight she in luck

Hit me up in case she think she want to (ugh)

I've been thinking about the good (I've been thinking about the good)

I've been writing about the remainder

If I feel need for pain (If I feel need for pain)

You're on retainer

I was goin' through it (I was goin' through it)

I was goin' through it

Let me explain, yeah

I was goin' through it (I was goin' through it)

I was goin' through it

Let me explain, yeah

They say let it all pass

Time will tell all

Mind trapped in a cell

Feels like jail

Anger got the best of me

Feel like I failed

Pushing her in messages

Just exhale

Spazzing all caps

"What the fuck do you mean?"

Drinking too much

Can't see clearly

No filter

Say all that I'm thinking

Feel great off my chest

Until the next morning

Memory is hazy at the very best

No matter which way I turn

Mind never turns to rest

She been making me go through some things

I only moved past when I saw nothing left

I don't even know where the fuck to begin

How do I even explain

Words with the wind

No way to put it all into a lens

Just enough to explain

I could never forgive

I don't even know how the fuck to live

I don't even know what the fuck I got to tell you 'cause I can't speak fluent