Surviving the Night

So if my story is coming true I'm the hero and the monster too And all that I can really do is make melodies of my memories And hope my screams will reach you How will I figure out just what this means My legs are tired from chasing dreams And solving problems I create I could change my mental state if I was awake Last year I was asleep To avoid all of the pain But Time forgot about me And everything has changed I just want to see the sky And remember who I am I want to live with open eyes I've decided that I can I'm waking up I hate how the negative is all I see And the thought of walking away is attractive to me And sometimes I think I've had enough But could never get enough. I can't live on love Last year I was asleep To avoid all of the pain But Time forgot about me And everything has changed I just want to see the sky And remember who I am I want to live with open eyes I decided that I can I'm happy in my dreams Because none of this is real Sleep is the cousin of death And that's how I wanna feel No ones coming to the rescue And I can not stay in here I'm sick of feeling nothing I'd rather face the fear Of waking up I'm waking up