Departure

I still see you there

Like a shadow in the hallway

Occupying space in your design

My mind in disrepair

Like the house in which you lived

Like every picture on the wall you left behind

But you're not gone;

I still see you in her eyes

And I hear your voice, echoing in mine

But what if I am wrong

And what I'm hearing isn't true?

I’d rather suffer madness, than let go for good

Than let go of you

In the end, are we just chasing

(The time that we've spent our lives wasting?)

All I hope is that you're happy now

I'm still so aware

Of the hole that's in my chest

I keep trying to fill it up with something new

Still there’s nothing there

Even two years since you left

Turns out nothing fits it quite the same as you

But there's beauty in your death

I see clearer than before

(I found closure in absence.)

I was blessed to, to have loved you

And have lost you, than to never have loved you at all

Than to never have loved you at all

Than to never have loved you at all

In the end, are we just chasing

(The time that we've spent our lives wasting?)

All I hope is that you're happy now

Every flame, will wither to embers

(But your warmth I'll always remember.)

I'll keep on chasing the time now gone

But there’s beauty in death

I found closure in absence

I was blessed to have loved you and lost you

Than never have loved you at all

I hope you’re happy now

I hope you’re happy now