Drunk & In Pain

For some reason, I keep attracting these diseases

And as an adolescent dipshit, it's cause I do as I pleases

I had life that used to revolve around school and education

Now I sit here waiting for my big revelation

I'm not a cynical at all, I just try to get by

With rising grade-points, beer and joints and a prospect to die

Yeah you might say I've had a good life so far

But it all seems so distant, sitting in this bar

This is just another excuse, to postpone things that I want

"If you like something find out why" a friend told me that cunt

And he was just trying to help me achieve my goals

No wonder I'm a drunken, diseased-filled asshole

Cause when a Wednesday closer turns into a garden-party for one

You realize cigarettes and booze is you're only gateway to fun

And if these words from a 20-year-old boy, living in a late modern society

Is not but a manifest to future generations sobriety

Then I don't know what to do

I've been all the genres through

So fill this empty glass, tonight I'm drinking for two

I'm not trying to be wise, this could be words from any blasé person

Who's feeling a bit depressed and want's to have some sort of assertion

That his life made an impact, in one way or another

If just on one person that would be to prefer than to discover

There were no real goals and plans for this kid

Who's sitting in Italy, thinking about some shit

Cause if we really want to boil it down

And conclude our business on the sixth round

I have a life I don't use

Is this what comes from despair?

Endless paths I could choose

Will I decide before my gray hair

I'm not a happy man, if you didn't get that far

But at least I'm blue as fuck, so put tips in my jar