10 Million Thoughts

All I ever do is wish for madness Anything to feel something again Since you've been gone it set me off my axis And now all I wanna do is forget God, why does it hurt to see you happy? How do I stop these feelings when they come? I don't know how I got here so don't ask me Either feel it all at once or be completely numb And god I feel it coming down, in slow motion He's watching me break down, with no emotion Nothing's spoken All I wanted was for you to want me Now all I want is to be alone I know that you won't listen but I'm sorry This life of fighting with myself is all I've ever known And god I feel it coming down, in slow motion He's watching me break down, with no emotion I tried my best to speak, but I'm frozen 'Bout ten million thoughts but, nothing's spoken 'Bout ten million thoughts but, nothing's spoken And god I feel it coming down, in slow motion He's watching me break down, with no emotion I tried my best to speak, but I'm frozen 'Bout ten million thoughts but, nothing's spoken 'Bout ten million thoughts but, nothing's spoken All I wanted was for you to want me Now all I want is to be alone I know that you won't listen but I'm sorry This life of fighting with myself is all I've ever known