I Think It Might Be Hell

Don't know where I'm lurking I think it might be hell I don't know where I'm sleeping I know I'm by myself I thought I'd keep it cool But I slowly start to melt I can't release emotion I don't think she can help I don't know how I'm breathing It's harder to inhale I'm headed down a trail Where she leaves me just to fail I fell under her potion She controlled me with a spell I'm hangin by a thread And now I think that she can tell I think she's slightly moving She's dancing by herself I think she aims to kill But I don't think that she will I think she wants me moving, points her pistol to my grill I think she wants me dancing But I just want the bill I'm feeling old emotions It's hard for me to tell I'm holding onto nothing, holding on with all my will I don't know where I'm going I'm going down a hill I don't know if I'm stupid I don't know what was real Feeling barely nothin' Feeling like myself This feeling in my body I'm feeling slightly stale I don't know what I'm doing I don't know who to tell I don't know what I'm doing Now I'm headed for the jail I don't know what I did And now I open up the cell I pour out all my sorrow Sorry for myself I don't know what they're saying They just want me to fail They don't want me to see it I feel it with the Braille Now I know what they're saying They gave me the details They handed me a weapon I point it at myself I hear their hounds they're barking They're coming straight from hell I hear my mother screaming I'm aiming for the kill I hear the dogs they're barking I'm loadin' up the twelve I hear the people talking I'm writing up my will I know who has my soul now I sent it through the mail I feel my brother's sorrow I feel the shotgun shell Where am I? Demon replied, "So you thought that it will be over, once you die "You thought you would be happy, once you die."