I Don't Go To Church Anymore

There use to be a bible on the desk beside my bed

But now there's half a bottle left of whiskey there instead

I use to read a verse or two at night before I slept

I wish I could remember what I read

And I would spend my Sunday mornings sitting in a church

Listening to sermons full of faith and grace and works

I wonder if they'd know me now if I came through those doors

I wonder if they knew me there before

Because I'm not who I was

I don't know who I am

I couldn't tell you where I'm going

But I know where I've been

I'm still trying, still surviving

Don't know what I'm looking for

But I don't go to church anymore

I wonder what my mom would say if she could see my soul

And when I leave this world behind me where she thinks I'll go

I hope my friends and family will love me like before

If they don't see me there on Sundays anymore

Because I'm not who I was

I don't know who I am

I couldn't tell you where I'm going

But I know where I've been

I'm still trying, still surviving

Don't know what I'm looking for

Cause I don't go to church anymore

Sometimes I talk to Jesus even though I'm still unsure

If he can hear me speaking like I thought he could before

I guess it gives me comfort to believe in something more

Cause I don't go to church anymore

Because I'm not who I was

I don't know who I am

I couldn't tell you where I'm going

But I know where I've been

I'm still trying, still surviving

Don't know what I'm looking for

But I don't go to church anymore

No, I don't go to church anymore