i tried everything (feat. Kailee Morgue & Zaini)

I swear I've tried everything

Cut the coffee for some tea

Cutting friends off who were mean

And I tried to get more sleep

Yeah

I swear I tried everything they said's supposed to work

How come no one told me as a kid that life's supposed to hurt?

Yeah, I heard that better days are right around the corner, but

I peeked around it just to find out that I'm sort-of fuckеd

So now I walk around emotionless, a hopeless mess

Drowning in this hopelessness

Pretending that I'm swimming, let's see how long I can hold my breath

Before I hit the bottom floor, hide away and lock my door

And overthink my problems more

I just don't know why it's gotta be this hard to exist

There's nothing left that I can do to help, I'm convinced

'Cause I swear I've tried everything

Cut the coffee for some tea

Cutting friends off 'cause they're mean

And I tried to get more sleep

Yeah

I swear I tried everything and haven't seen a result

Wish I could go back to my teens, don't wanna be an adult

My life just isn't how it seemed to be when I was a kid

Now when I wake up from my dreams I wish that I never woke 'cause they're so vivid

But the second I get out of bed, I watch it fade to monotone

Surrounded by the ones I love, but in my head I'm all alone

I put my phone on silent, take a walk, and then it starts to rain

Coincidence, but ever since it happened, haven't been the same

Why's it gotta be this hard to exist?

There's nothing left that I can do to help, I'm convinced

'Cause I swear I've tried everything

Cut the coffee for some tea

Cutting friends off 'cause they're mean

And I tried to get more sleep

Yeah

I swear I've tried it all, got better sleep

Had therapy two times a week

I hit a wall and I broke to pieces

Still ain't gotten back on my feet

I don't recall feeling like myself

This medication I'm on's no help

I try to hide how I feel inside

But I'm losing grip of my mental health

Why's it gotta be this hard to exist?

There's nothing left that I can do to help, I'm convinced

'Cause I swear I've tried everything

Cut the coffee for some tea

Cutting friends off 'cause they're mean

And I tried to get more sleep

But the roots are planted so deep

Do you think that you could love me?