What We Had

There's a reason why I never drank a double shot martini slightly dirty

I stop breathing when I'm getting close

To diagnosing what I already know

I could never ask for help

Thought I should just hate myself

I got a feeling if I leave in the morning

All of my demons are coming for me

I try so hard to think I'm not my father

I forget about what makes me who I am

I try so hard to think I'm not a goner

Hmm, but I'm still here where it began

What we had was a lie

But I wouldn't take it back

What we could have had if you tried

But we couldn't make it last

I've been keeping on with the music

So if he's out there, maybe he might hear it

I've been seeing every single movie

From the one with George Clooney

"What are you doing?" he said

Back in 2010

Back of the theater, his face was red

But I don't ever wanna change a thing

That made me stand on my own two feet

I try so hard to think I'm not my father

I forget about what makes me who I am

I try so hard to think I'm not a goner

Oh, but I'm still here where it began

What we had was a lie

But I wouldn't take it back

What we could have had if you tried

But we couldn't make it last

It's okay to cry

It's okay to laugh

It's okay to be happy

When I'm told I'm supposed to be sad

I don't miss the fights, when it got bad

No, I don't miss a single thing about my old man

But what we had (What we had)

And I wouldn't take it back

What we could have had if you tried

But we couldn't make it last