Can't sleep, feel like everybody hate me

And I really wouldn't blame 'em

I should feel amazing

But I've never been amazing

Ever since all of the changes

Life about the painful, pain filled moments in the rain, but

It's been difficult to stay tough

Know I didn't say enough

And I know you couldn't wait up

Fell behind and I gave up

But the one thing that I want you to know

I just wanna say my shit and then I promise I'll go

I've been tryna find the words that'll finally show

I'm a little bit more than a boy with no hope

I'm a little bit shit when it comes to love

Not the feeling but the everything else involved

I've been feeling like an enemy, that's my fault

And nobody is a friend to me, they fell off

Don't give a fuck

Let me talk about you and I

Let me talk about the old days when you'd cry

Let me talk about back when we used to try

Way back when we'd take walks under the sky

But you say you're fine, well that's alright

Now can you tell me why the fuck I'm missing you tonight

Can you tell me why the fuck you sing inside my mind

Can you tell me why the fuck that everything feels so, so

Different now

Everybody moved on, except for me

But everything different now

And I know that you gone while I still bleed

So it's all different now

And I know that I'm wrong, but can't you see

That is all different now?

It's so, so different now

(Different now)

(Everything different now)

(So, so different now)

(Different)

Tonight, well, I wrote you an essay for real

I asked you if all of this shit was for real

Like how do you feel, like isn't it weird

To look at my life without a stupid mirror

Well, isn't it clear, yeah, didn't you hear?

That I'm going crazy I lay in my tears

I'm living in fear, I'm thinking it's near

That one fucking day you will never be here

And one fucking day then I'll have had enough

All of the fighting and all of the stuff

That you and I went through and acted all tough

That shit will be gone, I'll no longer be cuffed

But I will be free, and I will become

A shadow of the boy that you really loved

But how did the darkness come out of the sun?

And how is it hardest when you've got the gun?

Let me talk about you and I

Let me talk about the old days when you'd cry

Let me talk about back when we used to try

Way back when we'd take walks under the sky

But you say you're fine, well that's alright

Now can you tell me why the fuck I'm missing you tonight

Can you tell me why the fuck you sing inside my mind

Can you tell me why the fuck that everything feels so, so

Different now

Everybody moved on, except for me

But everything different now

And I know that you gone while I still bleed

So it's all different now

And I know that I'm wrong, but can't you see

That is all different now?

It's so, so different now

(Different now)

(Everything different now)

(So, so different now)

(Different)

Looking back, yeah, you and I were best friends

And I know that I never held my end-up

What I'd do for one chance, but

You gave me millions, didn't you, right?

Acted like I was killing you, didn't you, right?

Said "I love you" in your notebook, didn't you write?

Said "I love you", gave me hope, but didn't we fight?

Now I hang around while you're busy living your life

Yeah, you're living your life. Tell me isn't it nice?

No more up worrying about all of my lies

Yeah, all of my lies, yeah, no more goodbyes

Yeah, this is the price, yeah, isn't it nice?

Yeah, isn't it nice that you better than me?

Life great while I'm sweating in a hundred degrees

My fate begging heaven while I'm on to my knees

Heart locked while I'm living and you're holding the keys

Let me talk about you and I

Let me talk about the old days when you'd cry

Let me talk about back when we used to try

Way back when we'd take walks under the sky

But you say you're fine, well that's alright

Now can you tell me why the fuck I'm missing you tonight

Can you tell me why the fuck you sing inside my mind

Can you tell me why the fuck that everything feels so, so

Different now

Everybody moved on, except for me

But everything different now

And I know that you gone while I still bleed

So it's all different now

And I know that I'm wrong, but can't you see

That is all different now?

It's so, so different now

(Different now)

(Everything different now)

(So, so different now)

(Different)